I've also seen a few concerts in the past twelve weeks. Last Friday, Heather, Amanda (pictured here) and I saw Better Than Ezra in concert. I chose to join Heather and Amanda for two reasons; 1) It was free 2) Curiosity Ben liked BTE and once said one of their songs reminded him of me. The concert was fine. Their stage presence was not impressive but whatever. It was free and we had good seats.

Afterward the three of us danced to Human League on the beach as traffic raced by us. I can't imagine what people must have thought but it was so fun! I want to dance like a crazy woman on the beach more often even if I have to do it solo.

Tomorrow Joy and Kelli are flying down to visit. I am so excited. They are the first of my friends to do so but I hope they are not the last. Although there is a lot to do I still get lonely and long for Washington and the friends I left behind. I even miss Kentucky sometimes. I am trying to convince Daddy to visit and I think Joshie and Lauren may celebrate Christmas down here with Dad and I.

Three months ago my life was filled with uncertainty. I had no idea how long I would be here or where I would go after my contract expired. Now it appears I will be here as long as there is work to do. It's not DC but I am learning so much and making some really great friends along the way. I wish with all my heart you could have shared this experience with me. I imagine we would have spent hours by the pool or sunbathing on the beach. We would have talked for hours on the balcony watching traffic pass in our nightgowns like we used to do. There would have been trips to Wally World and long discussions about the books we'd read. There would have been pep-talks in the evening when I came home frustrated and I'm confident you would have teased me when I told you about a certain Marine I met at church. Don't worry he's not interested but I find it interesting that he is exactly the type of man you would choose for me. I am confident you would like him.

There would have been pedicures and long lunches at our favorite restaurants. We would share Diet Coke, yes, I have made the switch, drinking from the same glass and make brownies every weekend but it was not to be and I can't understand why you couldn't just hang around a little longer. I don't understand why things worked out the way they did. Why you made certain decisions and why God failed to intervene. I know people loose loved ones everyday but damn why you? Why now? and how in the hell am I supposed to make it? How am I going to make it through this life without you? I feel so lost and I would give anything, ANYTHING, just to talk to you, to hug you, to see you one more time.

I know I will see you again and I often try to imagine what that day will be like. Dad says you will be even more beautiful than you were here and we will laugh and talk for hours. Although I believe he's right it doesn't really comfort me. I miss you so much. I love you and I think about you everyday.

Love you forever-

Sissy